Monday, September 3, 2012
Living With Pain
I've included photographs today of a battlefield in Scotland with a small portion of its modern memorial. It was a very cool, rainy day yet I stayed in the field protecting my camera as I walked among the lost lives and memories of those who believed in their cause.
Lately, I've been thinking a lot about pain--perhaps
because last Thursday, I bent down to pick up a remote and my lower back muscles clutched and spasmed so hard and so fast that I wasn't sure if I could even make it to the nearby couch.
The healing has been slow, I think slower than usual. Whenever I get sick or something on my body hurts enough that it changes my life for a few days, I wonder if there is a message in there I am supposed to discern.
Things pain has taught me AGAIN.
1. I can be a slow learner.
2. There are very few things I "have" to do on any typical day. Normally, I just think I have to do them.
3. I am not indispensable and that's OK.
4. The people I love, love me even when I'm a bit grumpy about this pain thing.
5. Pain is a humbling experience. Simple tasks aren't always possible without help.
5. Pain reminds me to be thankful. Too often I convince myself that I'm not smart enough, young enough, fit enough. Today I know I am enough, that each of us was put here for a purpose. And I believe that purpose is to love. Love you.